Sometimes I forgot that I'm married, or rather we're married. My mind never stopped wandering, never stop thinking, never stop thinking of the endless possibilities.
Sometimes, these "maybe"are good, but more often than not, they made me less patient, more guilty, more irritable and less adorable. I know it hurted you. But I cant help it. The book gave a million and one excuses for this devil side of me; mood swings, hormonal changes, discomfort etc etc. But I know it's just me. I need to be more forgiving, more tolerance and less petty.
I am angry with myself, so helpless, so dependent, so tired, so cooped up. I hope that this phase will pass soon and we will find everything worth it.
And I can tell you how much you mean to me, from the bottom of my heart.
3:21 PM
It's Me
Kai Lin
24 years old
Saggitarius
Married and loved
