Ever had tis experience before, you are really really sick and down, but just seeing someone makes you well again. But when you are onli a bit ill, missing someone and the lack of concern from him just make things worse.
Somehow...sometimes, I just hope that he was not so engrossed in his work, I wish he had more time to show me his care and concern, to give me more attention. But he had made it clear that it is of no fault of him that he wasnt there for me due to work.
I just hope that he will not regret this statement of his, or if he ever did, it wouldnt be too late. I am getting tired. but I think he does not know. Even if I did tell him, he did not once absorb it with an open mind.
Is it my fault? Am I asking for too much? Is it really too much a request for him to say more than a "go eat panadol loh"? Do I have to end up crying with a stabbed heart before going to bed every night?
Things used to be forgotten once the following morning arrives. But I realised that I can no longer take it as if nothing happened anymore, even after a long sleep with 2 sleeping pills. It's like the layer got thicker and thicker till I can no longer overlook its existance anymore.
Someone once told me that he will be more loving and caring once he finished his NS. BUt I really duno how long more I can allow things to go on this way.
How much do I still mean to you?
1:00 PM
It's Me
Kai Lin
24 years old
Saggitarius
Married and loved
