Thursday, December 15, 2005
I am sorry that I left without biding a proper farewell. But, I'm afraid of getting hurted again... the feeling is so strange yet so familiar, the feeling of someone squeezing out the juice out of your heart..it is painful, so much so tat I was suffocating...
I dunno why, you must be so harsh to me, all I did was just purely wanting to see you so much..it had been a week le...I miss you even if you dun...Cant I even feel sad and cry when plans to meet just go wrong? There is no word of gentle, just harsh words, harsh words, and more harsh words...even when you heard me sobbing over the other end of the phone, you know how sharp the pain was...that I could hardly breathe. I dun understand what I did wrong..what I haven done enough...
I wanna free myself from any risk of experiencing this pain again..it is horrible. I dun wanna fall in love anymore...suddenly Christmas...seems so far away...
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