Tuesday, November 15, 2005
I was proud to declare that I'm far from a bimbo, cos I have more brain than that.
I am ashamed to declare that I cant be a bimbo, cos I did not hit that standard of external factors that's required to be one.
Somehow, I wished that I had more of that look and less of that brain, so that I will be too dense to realise what I dun need to know and won't feel so inferior cos I am not slim and pretty.
I dun feel good at all...feeling fat and ugly, and all so insecure...I hate the feeling of insecurity, cos it just made me feel so down and frustrated. I wished that i dun have eyes to see what I dun want to believe, dun have the brain to figure everything out on my own. I wish I did not even touch that damn com of his, wished that I did not go to his house at all. It just made me wonder if what he had been telling me all along is true. Argh!!!! I hate it, I hate this kind of feeling. I hate feeling all decieved and unflattered!!!
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