Saturday, April 02, 2005
Things had been rather peaceful for the past few days, went to school with Dear on Wed, hahaha, we were even early enough to have breakfast before going for TEP..budden is cos we took cab..went to TM and tried tis formal top the night before, it was so nice loh, haizz..but it doesnt fit mi well..so cheap somemore, got 50% off...aiyo, so sadzz..still thinking abt it till now...Argh!!!
So nice the feeling of Dear hugging mi to slp..I love it loh, like so blissful like that...felt his overwhelming love when he hug mi, think of him will smile to myself de loh...Dear, I love you so much...yesterday after TEP Dear went to my place move my com...mum's impression of him like getting better le, i am happy!!!! Yippee!!! Things between him and mi is like not so bleak now le...Yeah!!! third month passed, i think more secure and stable le...Realli hope the day comes then I can hug him while sleep every night in a king-size bed...
Yesterday Noel called mi again, he was crying, telling mi how hard he was taking everything, this will have to stop...I supposed, did this harsh thing that I used to believe that I can never do...spoke to him in the coldest tone ever...my heart was taking a bet..this would either let him hate mi or make him more depressed..I prefer the former...i think i won the bbet...just hope that time will heal his wound, the cut that I had inflicted on him...
Dear...I dun want you to feel hurt too you know, that was also a reason why i was so cold to him besides wanting him to forget mi...
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