Friday, April 22, 2005
It had been a tough first three days of school..well, was pretty much exhausted by the orientation even though I gotta admit that I did not do anything much, except being just giving the moral supports, Kel was pretty much depressed so had no choice but to go on the third day and stayed till the end of everything, reached home at nearly welve with a class today at 8am..it was torturous man..Lunz skipped the morning classes...he was on man, still went to chiong after orientation..guess he did not realli slept well last night??? Or rather morning...gave him a morning call this morning, well, doesn't seemed to help...
Pretty good start huh..skipped my first calculus class..shit wondering how i am going to catch up next week...ARgh!!!Praying hard...
Just reached home from school, exhausted..but I cant sleep...mind thinking about lotsa things...guess who I saw just now..saw his brother, Max..did not had the cheek to look at him..guess he did not spot mi...I was pretty badly dressed today, hair was in the mess, guess he did not recognise mi...was always prim and properly dressed when he saw mi...glad that he did not see mi...but somehow it just changed my mood after I saw him...saw Gilbert..tok to him abt it..he advised mi to just ignore him...cos if I smile at him, then he stare back how..afterall, I had hurted his brother realli realli deeply, dun blame him for hating mi...
Since school started, been realli busy, neglected Dear alot...got to make it up to him..feel like a lousy gerfren when I cant even acc him to the doctor when he wasn't feeling well yesterday..it had been a long time since I felt that..the last time was like last year???
Reali tired now..think going to take a rest then have my dinner..I love you Dear...
9:19 AM
