Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Haven't been hearing from him since he last called mi, wondering how he is now..the onli way I can know if he is still alive is through his friend's blog...he haven't been updating his blog le...tml is the 6th, his 8 sisters going to his place le...will he name one of them Cassandra...it doesn't matter anymore, deep now within mi, I will just silently pray for the best for him...
Dear bought mi a pink hp strap, to replace my grey one, the last gift that he got for mi, cos i accidentalli made it wet during dinner on Sun...did not tell Dear that it was from him...he asked his brother to pass it to mi before he went back to KL...I did not tell Dear about it..I had hung it on cos, it was the last token that shows that we are still caring for each other, no matter as watever status...right now, i still care much for him, as a friend...but I think he is hating mi now...to the core ba...I took out the grey strap le, put it under my pillow and slept with it last night, threw it away this morning...From mow onwards, my heart will onli worry about Dear one guy, the rest, I will not think about them le...Dear, I love you...
Dear realli nice to mi, cried on Sun when I met him, cos he everytime late, made mi wait alone at the interchange for long long time, feel that he dun love mi at all...
but when I saw the hurt and pain in his eyes when he saw mi crying..it just soften my heart..feel all his love again..I know everytime he made mi cry, he will hate himself too..cos he dun like to see mi sad..
To him, I am his future le, I know...his mum told mi lots of things last weekend... I think I am able to accept their way of thinking, not that it is hard to accept, can sense the stability building up...Dear, i love you so much...
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