Saturday, April 30, 2005
Changed this song le, to Usher's Separated, surprised to hear that it is from Usher though, used to his R&B stuffs...anyway this is nice, got to know it from the blog of someone I used to hate..but after hearing this song on his blog, kinda undersatnd his situation, maybe they are just not fated to be together...
Teared when i was hearing this song, just thought of so much things, but I am glad that it is over...with an ending not the worst that I had expected...but, still feel for this song, two persons could never be together, cos they are not fated..God had time after time shows mi that we are not fated, even in the future, if not why is it that so many things, I tried to hide from you, just got discovered, he is telling you, telling us to stop living in the memories and get on with life...I am happy with this life that i am having now...hope you find urs too...soon.
Just realised how fragile life is, cant imagine that it happened that close, I dunno wat will happen to mi even tml, I want to make the fullest of every single day, do something meaningful, something that I always wanted to do but was lazy or disheartened to do..for the club, there were many things I had thought of doing that I know would improve the situation of the club, but i was too disheartened to do it.. kept all the plans to myself, maybe I was partly at fault for wat had happened to the club today, cos I did not brush aside my feelings and get too emotional for my own good, I left the club in the lurch though knowing that it was drowning, though I know how to swim.
Onli just starting to get it into action..hope it might not be too late..I had tried to make the best out of my mistake...hope they give mi a chance to...I dun want to die tml and have any regret...in anyone, I had never regretted joining the club just that sometimes, I just need to reassure myself that it is a right choice, I had onli one regret so far, that is trusting that guy in wat he say, never looking through his mask...he put us down, backstabbed us, I will never forgive him..will not even say hi to him if I pass by him in school next time...let mi be emotional this once..
Friends, I just wanna tell you guys "I love you"...DS, especially, and C9. You two clicks are the best ppl that I had found. Shiting, I knew that I had kinda taken our friendship for granted, just touched that you are always there for mi, for everything..
Dianna, I dun hate you, in fact I was the most worried for you, cos when you fierce to us, fierce to mi, we forgive and forget easily, but others might act as if they dun mind, but who knows wat's going up their sleeves...they might act as if you dun mind, but you never know...we cant be there to look out for those potential risk that you might be facing next time you know??? You are easily manipulated and taken in, even though I might be younger than you for a year, but a lot of things mi and rong see that you did not see...being too emotional is no good, realli, this is my real-life experience.
This is a long long blog...I just feel that like is so unpredictable, I realli dunno wat will happen tml, I am scared, realli scared, but cant show it...I must be strong... two worriers doesnt form the solution.
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