Friday, March 25, 2005
My heart is still in immense pain..hurted by the fact that he was once again hurted by me, I am a evil ger...deserve to be run over by a car..the suffocating voice that he talked to mi in last night still lingers on in my ears before I fall asleep at 3am and right after I woke up again...it is a curse that I brought to myself... no one's fault but mine...I deserved it...
I should have stood firm in being harsh to him...everything that dragged between mi and him will just bring him more pain than before, cutting him again..but I cant, I saw him calling mi, I am scared of hurting him even deeper if i dun picked up his call...I made a selfish choice, it hurted mi too to reject his call..
I am sorrie, I am trying, to give you the happiness that i once could give you..sorrie for picking up your call, just forget mi, and just drop mi, i beg you, just drop mi...
1:34 AM
