Wednesday, March 23, 2005
Know something, I had just developed phobia of blogging after last night, yet ironically, I dunno why I am back at it again...I still feel that tis is the best place for mi to vent my fustrations and my woes...maybe those that I had deservingly brought upon myself...they are right, I am a bitch...
How on earth did i manged to do it, you know, hurting someone whom I loved and love mi so deeply, I dunno wat got into mi, which made mi hurt him again and again, each cut inflicted cutting him deeper and deeper...I guess I was just too soft-hearted, that is not an excuse, I know it...I know I wasn't being fair to him, but wat done's already done. all i can do now is to try to lessen his hurt and pain.
Maybe I should realli do wat I promised his mum, be harsh to him, time will heal his wounds without mi being there to rub salt onto it...I want him to be happy, realli, i never yearn so much for someone to be happy, God help mi...please..on my part..I can be a bigger bitch by not answering his calls and let him get on with his life without such a troublemaker like mi in it.
God, no matter wat form you're in, all the blessing that had been passed to mi, let it be passed to him...Iwant him to be happy no matter wat's going to happened in the future, that's the least I can repay him, for loving mi so much..
11:43 AM
